Crying.

Screaming.

Throwing up.

Released Nov. 12, “Red (Taylor’s version)” is the perfect album for my emotionally unstable self. This album includes 30 songs: Taylor Swift’s entire Red deluxe album re-recorded, as well as nine songs “from the vault.”

If you are unaware of why Swift is releasing re-recordings of her masters, check out the summary in my review of Fearless (Taylor’s version). 

I have to start with the most iconic song on this album, “All Too Well (10 Minute Version) (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault).” Many Swifties know that “All Too Well” is about her three-month relationship with Jake Gyllenhaal back in 2010. I am an open Gyllenhaal hater, especially considering he didn’t show up to Swift’s 21st birthday as shared in “The Moment I Knew (Taylor’s Version).” Fans like myself have been waiting for this song since 2012 when Swift mentioned in an interview with Good Morning America that she had cut the song down from 10 minutes since “you can’t put [a 10 minute song] on an album.” Not only did Swift add the 10-minute song to her latest album, but she graced us with a short film featuring Dylan O’Brien and Sadie Sink. The short provides an intense visual of the song, and Swift was thoughtful with the casting, as O’Brien and Sinks’ age gap is similar to her and Gyllenhaal’s during the time of their relationship.

Another song that rips my heart out and puts it through a meat grinder is “Better Man (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault).” Swift originally wrote this song for Little Big Town’s album “The Breaker.” Swift’s voice sounds country, similar to her sound on her debut album. I love this song as a slow sad jam for when I am doing homework or just in my feels.

“Better Man” is followed by one of the most iconic, groundbreaking collaborations in the history of mankind – Swift and Phoebe Bridgers. Their song is titled “Nothing New (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault).” On the track, they say, “how can a person know everything at 18, but nothing at 22.” As I am getting closer to turning 18, I’m holding this song close to my heart. As graduation is creeping up on me, I am entering unknown territory. It feels like I’m losing all familiarity, as well as part of myself, and I think this song captures those feelings perfectly. 

This album has caused me to stop forcing my problems on other people and instead start using the music to cope. For the rest of the fall season, you can find me hysterically sobbing while “Red (Taylor’s Version)” is playing obnoxiously loud.